snailempire asked: what was it like for you as a teenager? what would your advice be for young earthlings figuring themselves out
mind you my friend – i am still nineteen. i am only nineteen. i am as small a child as you are. we’re all just little earthlings dreaming about seedlings hoping that one day the day will come when we can be bigger than our small bodies will make possible. if you’re asking me what it was like to be thirteen or fourteen, fifteen or sixteen, i can tell you that it was terrible but also wonderful. i was timid and i had my dreams. i was lonely but i had my dreams. i was in love, constantly, with everyone around me. i had to learn how to save myself, many many times. i alienated myself from my family and my friends. i pulled into my skin until i was only a pile of colors that to this day i’m still trying to smooth out and organize. (was so sad i was so so sad). i was dreamy as a child but lost that for a while. a year or two ago my father told me that i was in tune with the world again, something that he noticed i had lost for a few years in my early adolescence. i tried very hard to fit in but realized that i didn’t even want to, really. i kissed a lot of people and made a lot of mistakes too early. i lied a lot. i did bad kid things but was really a good kid, still am i think. all of these things are still happening in spurts. i’m still myself at sixteen and seventeen, eighteen and nineteen. i’m still twelve at heart. all the advice i was given i didn’t listen to. all i did was try to survive, and i did it. you can do it too. being a teenager is underrated and incredibly difficult. allow yourself to feel it all. allow yourself to weep uncontrollably. scream into your pillow. don’t drive recklessly. sit in the woods and think that no one gets you. it’s okay. the most comforting thing in the world is to realize that it happens to us all.